Hit Me Like A Brick

I heard in a sermon on Sunday a question. I have wrestled with it for several days now.


"Do I seek Jesus for who He is or for what He has to offer me?"

Let me say that again, "Do I seek Jesus for who He is or for what He has to offer me?"

I grew up in a churched background. I know the answer to that question or at least I know what the answer is supposed to be. So for several days I have wrestled with my answer really is. If I'm truthful, my answer is both. There are times when I do seek Jesus just for who He is, but more often it is for what he offers me or how I benefit from having a relationship with Him.
This is a hard truth to swallow. I feel guiltily for it. Then I hear Jesus softly whisper that it's not about me feeling guilty. I hear Him whisper that He loves me more then I can ever know. I rest in the person of Jesus Christ, fully aware that I am flawed, yet forgiven.